Have you ever told yourself this story and stood in your own way? Who am I to share what I can do? Who am I to help others? Really who am I before I was told who I should be? Who am I if I’m not perfect? Who am I if this friend doesn’t like me and does my voice matter? …
These are all questions I’ve asked myself at one point in my life …
I’ve sat and pondered what if Thomas Edison had this thought, Oprah or Deepak… what if they said who am I and didn’t share? What if their ego kept them small and they choose to stay silent?
I’ll tell who you are, you are presence, powerful and worthy of this moment of full acceptance of who you are in this second. You are an extension of this human race, a collective collaboration and I am thankful for you being part of Reawakeningbeauty.
You are special just as you are in your humanness.
New Wave and Reawakeningbeauty and why this aligned a blast back into the past!
Breaking boundaries, barriers and the taboo of so called what the norm once was. Let’s start from the beginning! My brand started when I could no longer fake a smile and pretend I wasn’t anxious anymore. I was called one of those robotic people, always smiling, you could insult me and it didn’t seem to bother me. On the outside my life looked good, a steady job, a boyfriend of six years, a cute dog and modelling for two different agencies. However, outward appearances can be deceiving, on the inside I was suffering silently. Social anxiety, low confidence, seeking outside validation and panic attacks were my norm. I had a temper caused from overcoming an eating disorder that I used to numb my Emotions after years of abuse. I realized I was a fucking shit show!
Little segway … suppressed emotions will come out and I can promise you this!
One day I walked into work at Guerlain, where I worked as a counter manager … or better yet I tried to, after hearing my cousin was either said to have been murdered or killed himself. Not my first time hearing tragedy of this level nor was it my last, but this was my transformation.
That day, the fake smile lead me to a connection … My cousin, the one who I always thought understood me, was gone! That week my personal life came crashing down. My friend at the time had said I should simply get over it, that was clear indication that they are no longer my friend. Above all that my romantic relationship was hanging by a thread.
I had been to many doctors after that and they would all say the same thing, “You’re a pretty girl, you’ll get over it. Don’t you know how lucky you are to be alive and functioning at this level after a brain aneurism”… but in my head I felt like an unlovable monster. I felt hideous, stupid, annoying and worst of all… now alone! I have always felt like this, but I would mask it with over working and over giving to friends and family until I had nothing left to give.
“We live in such a toxic world?” “Is this always going to be my life?” “Can I actually be happy?” “What’s my life purpose?” “How can I marry my dreadful upbringing, loses and sorrow to help anyone and lastly How does toxic skin-care impact your body and your mind?” I sat and pondered the questions for hours. I had studied law of attraction and Eckhart Tolle’s teachings since 19. I was determined to create something raw and real from this tragedy!
So from that day, out of my worst pain at that moment, Reawakeningbeauty was born!!! A brand that connected my nutrition teachings, with how the mind works, to the power of presence and how to use my unique skills to truly get women and men to be healthy and feel beautiful and never alone!!
I struggled with so much inner conflict, but my belief in achieving my dreams has always been higher. Rather than the voices of doubt!
We all have that voice saying what if I can’t?! Have you heard of imposter syndrome? It’s a real thing and it kills dreams! (I’ll train on this another time)
However, I didn’t listen to my head saying I was worthless and acted inspite of it! When someone said no you can’t, my brain said I’ll prove you wrong!
I’m not a hero…Just brave enough to tell self doubt to hit the road! I acted with fear in my belly and still do! Anyone who tells you making changes to your life isn’t scary is lying.
At 19 I became a Zumba instructor with no formal training! I graduated at the top of my class living in a city on my own & got 4 rewards in the process! I worked 3 jobs to pay my bills and babysat on the side!
Want to know the best part?! I did this all while recovering from a severe brain aneurysm, anorexia, polycystic fibrosis, liver problems and social anxiety! During this time my family and friends had given up on me because they found it to be too hard. But I NEVER did!!
I wouldn’t change any of it! I’ll never say that life was unfair, in fact I believe it was my past events that have guided me to a brighter future!
My life now is so different today! I now coach women globally on achieving their goals and growing their mindset! I also model and run a successful business
I have lived a full life and every challenge shaped me into who I am! If I would have said I can’t, could you imagine what I would have missed out on.
Here are some of my life’s journey & memories I collected along the way 💕🌱🌿